Fogged In

How many milliliters of output did I have today?
How much output is too much?
What should I be aiming for for output?
Am I dehydrated?
How much fluid can I drink with out causing my output to the dehydration zone?
Is this permanent? 
How do I get the multiple holes in my abdomen to close?
What will Doctor Brown say?
Will Doctor Brown let me go home this Friday?
What will home life be like?
Are these holes permanent?
Someone give me some answers!!!
Someone give me a plan that I can follow that all teams agree with!!!

​God damned I feel fatigued.  My head is swimming in these thoughts.  I feel like my head is in a white fog constantly searching for an answer to these questions.  Searching for a plan to get me from where I now... a place with no solid agreed upon plan to get me from eating and drinking nothing to a place where I am eating and drinking again.  A plan based on data and clinical experience that passes the gut check of an engineer.  This fog is uncomfortable... I can't see the yellow center line of the road... I don't know if I'm on the right side or the wrong side.

Hopefully I'll get more answers on Monday when my head surgeon returns and he'll be able to pull the teams together and give me a plan with some assurances that it will work and an explanation for my engineering mind on why it will work.