A bittersweet day pass for home [Dan]

Over the past week I have been provided with several day passes to go home.  Home, far away from the four walls of my hospital room with its sterile walls and strange noises.  Going home was bitter sweet for while I felt good to lie on the couch and listen to the familiar sounds of home like the fireplace and my family's voices it was also bittersweet as I felt grief, loss and sadness at knowing how much time at home with my family that I had missed.  All the shared meals, the cuddling on the couch, having friends over for dinner, cooking meals for my wife (something I love to do)... and knowing that when I get back it will be the same and it won't for a while as my recovery will still take some time.  My amazing and lovely wife Tina assures me that life is just on pause and we will resume the lives we made for ourselves in good time.  She is an amazing rock of support for me.  I'm not sure where I'd be without her.